My age

There has been three instances in Thailand were Thais thought I was a younger age, in the area of 14-16 years old. Is it how I dress, my behaviour, the aura I send off, what? Seems like only Thais think I'm younger, they might be more sensitive to auras or energy. Asia's full of mysticism.

However there was one other instance where Nabila, Emalia's friend, thought I wasn't 18. She said "With that innocent face?" Maybe it is my face, it's a boyish face. The last person who said I was young said it was my face that made it seem I was younger. I wonder if taking all those vitamins caused it. I haven't done too many "bad" stuff either, so I guess people can say I'm innocent. Or maybe I'm immature or not ready to be an adult yet, with Oma always asking me to sleep over. I got over my fear of talking to strangers on the phone, well at least how to deal with it. When I got drunk and broke Kladia's sink, Cliffordd thought I was like a kid., or was it how he treated me. I think I had less of a conscience when I was smaller. I stole money, cussed at a small kid, walked as far away from Giman as possible and so many other things, but when I was younger people seem to think I was mature for my age, cause I kept quiet often....maybe thatt's why...


Being young at heart does have its advantages. I read that Leonardo da Vinci kept playing like a child even as he got older and his peers thought him mad. As you grow up, you take in many realistic ideals and develop your philosophy of life. You realize your options in life are narrowed down ever so much as life gives you failure and heartbreak. If that's how you think, it will eventually become your reality. A child has a great imagination and thinks that little is impossible. A true genius must retain this childlike quality if he ever hopes to accomplish anything. Maybe this applies to me...I hope so.