Words

My mother's words really made my day. I mean it was the highlight of my day. She wants me to socialize. "Why don't you join an interest group?" When she says that it's like those mothers who have to find friends for her lonely son. Now that is pathetic. I have friends here, though I don't see them much. What does she want me to do? She's always letting me do what I want, but I can't stay home and play video games!? Does she still have a problem with me playing video games? I guess she still does. It's a big waste of time. I admit I'm scared of interacting with people to an extent. Scared if being ridiculed if I say something wrong. Scared of acting like a fool. Scared of stuttering and saying the wrong things. Scared that the world will end if the conversation doesn't go smoothly. Scared that there is a misunderstanding. That's my struggle in life.