Motivation

I wonder what motivates me to wake up every morning and just live. I guess the body just won't let itself sleep all day, unless something's very wrong with you. What motivates my body? The air I breathe, the food I eat. What keeps my heart beating? Isn't it the cerebellum or some part in the brain? Allah gave me this life, He motivated my body to life and I should thank Him every chance I get. Is He the most basic motivator? Guess it's like asking why do we live. Fear can also be a powerful motivator. Fear that I won't be able to support myself when my parents retire. I admit that I am scared of life, scared to live. I was good in school, then what happened? I wasn't alive. My body told I wasn't living properly. That was the depression. I can't fall back to old habits. Socializing is importante, but it's kind of hard in my situation. The answer is within me. And what motivates me to write in this blog? I get good feedback on my writing.