Internal turmoil

I just got back from a day trip to Huahin, south of Bangkok. My parents were inspecting the Hyatt Hotel there for the president's accommodation during the 14th ASEAN summit in Thailand. I was pretty fine throughout the trip with my iPod. I was feeling a bit sad when I came back. I still feel there is an internal turmoil in me, some savage beast that wants to come out. Is it my subconscious? I think violent thoughts, but the urge is gone thank you and that urge to kiss whoever I'm talking to face to face is gone. That's fucking weird. I hated feeling like that. My eyes are tired. I feel generally weak. Oh yeah, the person that showed us around, Khun Pang, thought I was seventeen. Good fortune for me, I guess my face is innocent and I look to young for my age. Is my behavior the same?